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my quest to find a new relationship

27 May

So, as I mentioned before, the plan was to start working with a dietitian.  Now, it is official…I have started a program that will teach me how my body uses food as well as gives me a solid understanding of how to make healthier choices.  As you know, my mission is to lose weight, but this time I’m looking for a real lifestyle change with long-term implications.

I’ve failed many times before with gimmicks, pills, and offers like “read this book and lose weight”, “buy this expensive equipment and watch the pounds melt away”, and of course I’ve tried more traditional methods like Jenny Craig and Weight Watchers and found some short-term success with their special meals and meetings.  I learned a lot from each one of these attempts at weight loss.  1) There are no magic pills, potions or lotions    2) An exercise machine is only good if you USE it    3) The books (and corresponding cookbooks) look great on my bookshelf, but do very little for my “back shelf”–aka my behind    4) I find pre-made foods limiting    5) I don’t love the idea of carrying around a sliding scale at the grocery store just to figure out how many Points there are in a serving of Honey Bunches of Oats

There are so many people who swear by these methods and I am ecstatic for those who have used them and found long-term success, but I am tired of “dieting”.  I just want to be “normal” and not have to think about food all the time.  I want to eat NORMAL foods that I can get from a grocery store.  I don’t want to rush to a weekly meeting to stand in line and weigh in.  I want to learn how to have a simple, normal, HEALTHY relationship with food.

Don’t get me wrong…I know all relationships take some work.  And just like the start of any great relationship, I am ready to dedicate some serious time getting to know my body… learning about its little quirks, discovering what it likes and dislikes and uncovering what really turns it on.  I am ready to work hard at this.  I totally expect good days and bad days, highs and lows, days to celebrate and moments where I will just need a timeout and a little “space”.  I am ready to put 100% into this and in return I want to get to a point where I am not consumed by it.  Where making healthy choices is second nature, not something that I can only do by picking up a sliding scale or warming up a pre-packaged meal…a simple, “it looks too good to be true” kind of love.

Losing weight is hard  (gaining it…not so much) and I’ve watched myself fail too many times.  I’ve mastered the art of STARTING diets, but reaching my goals…well that’s unchartered territory.  I’ve had ENOUGH!!  I need a team that will keep me motivated, be supportive and give me the tools to do this for the long haul.

The Fisherman by Håkon Iversen

“Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.”   – Chinese Proverb

I don’t want to be dependent on any special meals, pills, food calculations, etc…  I want to learn how to read labels and figure out what it all means, appreciate food for what it is–a source of energy, understand what I am putting into my body and learn to really maximize the benefits of each meal that I eat.  I also want to understand why my body does what it does….  Why when I only eat 2 meals a day, I still gain weight?  Why am I never thirsty?  Why am I always so tired?  How many calories should I be getting?  How can I get my body to work with me based on MY current situation?  The list goes on and on…

So, today marks the beginning of the second week of working with Emily, my dietitian, who you will hear more about throughout this journey.  Over the last month, I have provided Emily with some assessments that gave her a look into the secret window of my life.  What, when, how much I eat……What I like, dislike, love and can’t live without…what motivates me, bums me out, and really sets me off….What I’m at risk for, my family history, my physical limitations….you get the point…

She’s taken the time to understand where I’m coming from and is designing a plan just for ME and now she joins me on my journey and I couldn’t be more thrilled!  In the last week, she’s already explained a lot about my body, the metabolism and even gave me a few homework assignments.

This post is already crazy long, so I will save the details for my next post.  I am super excited and want to share some of the information that I’ve already learned and share my progress so far after working with Emily over the last week!

In the meantime, I thought I’d try to make this a little more interactive and hopefully hear back from my 4 blog buddies (yes, I now have FOUR AWESOME subscribers to my blog…I AM SO EXCITED!).

What kind of relationship do you have with your body?  What would it say about you?

Reply in the comment section…I really want to get to know you guys!

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dusting off the old scale

22 Apr

So, I haven’t gotten to the point mentally where I am ready to share my actual weight, but I have dusted off the old scale and once I begin working with my Dietitian to get a better grasp of how to approach food, I will begin sharing my progress.  I realize that I’ll probably lose more in the first few weeks because I’m going from eating anything, anytime, anywhere to learning how to eat better and because I’m going from not moving at all to actually trying to move everyday.  I’m so excited!

I started a friendly challenge to get me moving 30 minutes a day and drinking more water.  I went for a walk around the park on Sunday.  I didn’t really break a sweat (I rarely do), but I was breathing harder (which really doesn’t take much work).  I was able to get my 8-8oz glasses of water in as well, which I was happy about…until of course I had to get up 5 times in the middle of the night!  LESSON:  Drink earlier, silly!

Monday was my second day of this challenge.  I drank my water earlier and slept almost through the night–ah I missed you Deep Sleep.  Tuesday and Wednesday were even better….slept the whole night!  YAY!  What a difference it makes to get that water in early!

As far as the moving more part of the challenge, I realized quickly that this would be tough!  About 20 minutes into watching a workout video on Monday, I wanted to “re-think” the situation by trying to rationalize that I had made a mistake joining such a challenge because this BIG girl needs to start off slower than that and work my way up to 30 minutes a day!  But before I could turn off the workout video I was watching, I started feeling doomed and decided to get back up and stop watching the skinny lady with the perfect body on TV workout alone, but join her to finish the 10 minutes I had left.  So I got my butt off the couch and did it!  Hurdle one…stop talking myself out of doing the right thing… I’m 33, not 133 and if my body can carry this weight around, it can stand a low impact workout.

Tuesday, I bounced around a bit from a video to the elliptical to settling on doing some yard work…which somewhat counts since I was digging a trench (don’t ask).  Yesterday, I almost abandoned my challenge as my day was thrown off a little.  At 9:30 I noticed my shoes were staring at me from across the room…as if to say, “Hey you…you going walking today or not?”  I was tired and really wanting to just skip it, but as promised, the boyfriend (actually trying to be supportive in this area) put on his shoes around 10:30pm, grabbed two dogs and put them on their leashes and said, “Let’s Do This!”.  Now, I am not sure if you have dogs, but if you do…you know that once you break out the leash and say the word W-A-L-K, it’s over.  You have committed to the moment they’ve been waiting for all day!!  There they were, tails a’wigglin’, mouths a’droolin’, and ready to hit the door.  I couldn’t very well look into those happy little eyes and stomp on their dreams..so off we went at 10:35 at night (geez)!

We rolled back into the house at 11:22pm after the boyfriend thought it’d be fun not to go around the park, but to walk the dogs up to the store and back.  He then convinced me of a shortcut that I am now pretty sure isn’t a shortcut at all!  The good news…I moved for at least 30 minutes and went about 1.9 miles, something I never thought was possible!  So, I secretly admit that I am glad he had that bright idea!  My shoulders were killing me (I’m thinking it was the pulling from the dog), but my feet were doing ok and I was sweating…which is a great sign!  But the most important thing, I feel good because I went to bed knowing that I tried doing better and pushed myself (or got pushed).  Either way, I did it… now  I pray I can keep it up!!

I am just getting started and as I mentioned before, I’m keeping a food journal for the Dietitian I am meeting with soon.  I think if I can keep a positive attitude and stay focused on my goal, once she starts working with me to give me the tools to re-learn HOW to eat better and optimize my meals, I’m praying I will be unstoppable!

it’s easy to do bad when you think nobody is watching

18 Apr

Over the last week or so I’ve been trying to figure out what I can do to officially start this journey.  Sure, I started a blog, tried a few new veggies, researched a workout video to order, and even talked the boyfriend in designing a workout for me.  But now what?

This is a big project and I have a long road ahead of me, so I decided to swallow my pride (as much as possible) and to get some help because I know I can’t do this all alone.

So what will I do?  Well for starters, I will get some professional help.  I am going to partner with a dietitian to help get me on track and adjust my current eating habits.  Of course, I don’t think that I got this way from not knowing that eating pizza for lunch, a greasy burger for dinner and ice cream for dessert was bad for me.  Of course, I knew those were poor choices, but I did it anyway either because it was easier and faster than trying to find time in my hectic schedule to come up with a healthier alternative or simply because I crave junk food.  After years of taking the easy road, I’ve formed some very bad habits.  I hope by partnering with my dietitian I will begin to find ways to break those bad habits and pick up some healthier ones.

Step 1 is to write a food journal over the next 7 days.  Today, is the first day and I have to admit…I eat A LOT of stuff that is horrible!  The one thing I find most interesting about this process is that even though I have no problem zipping through a drive- thru and upsizing a combo meal any other time, I am now fighting the temptation to modify my usual high fat diet in order to hide this nasty little habit.  I realize that I have to be honest with myself and this log if I really want some constructive feedback and a fair chance of getting the help that I really need.  I also realize that reporting that I only eat salad with low-fat dressing each meal is not going to fool anyone.  Clearly, I didn’t get this way because of salad!

The crazy thing is, once I start writing down all of the bad things I consume, I am forced to own up to the fact that I am slowly killing myself one burger at a time.  Throughout the day today, I immediately thought of healthy alternatives..something that I NEVER do.  I always eat first, and think later (usually as I am sitting around full as a tick).  But the thought that I had to send this journal of self-destruction to a third-party to be analyzed, I suddenly wanted to switch gears.  How crazy is this?  I’ve been hiding behind things for so many years and now that I have someone who can actually help…my first instinct is to hide the truth from her.  Goodness!

Today, I ate like crap, but no different from any other day of my life.  The only strange thing is that today it was harder because I had to own those decisions.  And as I look over my journal for the day, I think of the many things that are wrong with it and wonder why if it is so blatantly obvious, I didn’t pay attention sooner.

If you’ve never kept a journal of what you eat…or haven’t in a while…try it.  Write as though you are going to send it off to be “judged”.  Let me know how it goes for you…  Like me, do you suddenly feel this overwhelming feeling to lie or to suddenly eat better than you have in years..just because you know someone else could see it?